14: Badfish

Oh boy, it's been a while; it's nice to see you.

I've made some bad decisions recently. I slept with someone I shouldn't have and now I am supremely awkward around him. But, just to make things a bit worse, I discovered that I have feelings for his friend. BAD. I really wish that I didn't because my life would be unbelieveably easier if I didn't always fall for people I didn't know so well. Not only that, but my other (female) friend dated that guy. Balls.

Can God just lighten up on me?

I'm in a beautiful new house now at college and we built a sick beirut table, complete with Beatles and Sublime lyrics. I'm pretty excited about it.

~

Am I a romantic to think that people are basically good? Or a John Locke? What is the problem with the optimistic thinking that people won't let you down? Maybe that's a hippie thing. Or maybe it's just naive.