I'm starting to realize how much of an idiot I was during Christmas Break. I legitimately screwed up a few relationships. Or did I? I definitely screwed up one. And I'm most sorry for that, but some I didn't expect. I had a 6 month long first impression of one of my best guy friends, and as it turns out, it would be more constructive for me to talk to a neighborhood squirrel about my problems, because even that has better focus than he does. Now I just feel stupid for how much effort I put into that relationship. I offered him a place to stay next year if he's stuck without a house and have always been overly generous to him. I FOR SURE don't want a relationship with him or even like him like that at all, but it's always been easier to connect with guys for me because they don't carry the bullshit most girls do. I just realized that everytime he calls me or "wants to hang out" he wants something from me. Fuck that.
I pierced the nape of my neck. How stupid am I?
I want nothing more than to look back on my life and think that I had so much fun and was stupid, impulsive, and irrational at some point in my life. It was worth it. Even though I passed out and seized a couple times.
I met a guy last weekend. He definitely made me think he was interested beyond that night. He kissed me and didn't even try the wandering hand shit! Not only that, but he asked for my number like an hour before that. People will never cease to surprise and dissapoint me. I'm starting to get sick of being alone.
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